da gOd of rOck....(a sad part in him)

I sit alone , I walk alone
Coz I am very lonely

This feeling of lonliness haunts me
Each day and each night

No matter what the occassion is,
It alwayz was there with me.

Then did mah mind go dizzy,
And I thought of something unusual.

Smoke, is what I started,
Cigarettes had become my pet.

I Smoked day and night,
Only to get rid of lonliness.

I did this for as many times as possible,
But afte sometime I felt this ineffective.

Then did I go to a bar,
Bought a bottle of beer….

This beer was a gateway for me
Gateway for me to whisky,rum,tequilla…

Then I fell in love,
In love with a lady who was 22.

I married her, thinking that she would
Become an integral part of mah life,
But she betrayed me all time.

She pricked me through her words,
Never bothered what my young daughter would think
Of me….!!!

Then did I start to dope..!!
Couldn’t myself believe so as to how bothered what my young daughter would think
Of me….!!!

Then did I start to dope..!!
Couldn’t myself believe so as to how
How the hell did i start it.

I became fierce, my voice strong,
And then I shook the nation with it,

Money was all around , but
But there was still that lonely feeling
There wasn’t any happiness.

And then did a thought suddenly strike me,
It flashed in ma mind very quickly.

What have I done to this world
I was always self-centered ,never cared about others.

Many are lonely as I am..

Oh lord !! in ma life I have tried everything ,
I smoked,I boozed,I doped !!
I loved,I married,I was betrayed !!

All is over for me and I am 27.
Accept this dear lord buddha….



(based upon the suicide note of kurt cobain…..nirvana vocalist
he once told that "I am worst at what I do best and for this gift I feel blessed")

THE SILENT ANSWER

Twas the moment when my eyes broadened
Coz I saw my life , my love.

Twas when I was in a lounge,
All set with my friends.

She was there, sitting all alone ,
Letting her lonely feelings capture her.

Was always least bothered about others
But this time my heart beat harder,faster.

Her twinkling eyes made mine sparkle,
Her hairs let my feelings fly.

Her smile to the waitress made my
Heart fly,soothed all mah inner side.

And then came , a music which rang in my ears,
A shower of flowers made me soft and
A unique current passed through me.

I couldn’t resist myself,
So leaving all my friends behind,
I went,
I went near her..

She stared at me , meaning to ask me
who I am…

but I was dumbstruck,


I told her about her beauty,
Praised GOD for her.

She smiled , but still there was a pain,
A lonely feeling in her eyes…

Gave her the confidence , the trust
Knowing not what the reason is..

Unknowingly , I forced her to speak ,
To spell her name for me..

And what all I got was a paper
Written on it by her as………..

I qualmed down for seconds until
Was back in this puzzling world

But she wasn’t seen….searched her
But all in vain…

I wonder about this world , full
Of complexities, life is upon you

For some it’s a boon, for some it’s a curse,
But being dumb is obviously a GOD’S wish.

immaturity...(probably a poem..!!!)

Immaturity

Twas a cold odd night
felt a bit uncomfortable to settle
Sat down for a short nap
Alas! Couldn’t succeed..!

Then did I reach a place
A place so dear to me
Twas my brothers home.

We then went to a bar,
A bar with a dance floor
Brother met his friend there,
And I her cousin….!!

Sat dumbstruck at her beauty.
Sat dumbstruck at her curvy moves,
Sat dumbstruck at her elegance,
Sat dumbstruck at her grace…

I rose upto her to speak,
To get close , to spark..
To initiate a feeling in her.

With all the guts n dare,
Asked thy a drink ….
“cranberry err…breezer…”, was the reply__!!
Felt heaven for the reply.

With a bottle in one hand ,
And I on the couch beside her…
Put it into the mouth , puffed…
And a sweet smoke was all over…

Conversation started ----fun flew in,
Laughter was what I could hear,
Eyes were what I could see,
Love was what I could feel.

Time was up…
Fire danced on bartenders table,
Twas time to move, to depart.

On way back home,
I changed, I felt I changed ,
Was quiet happy for the exchange,
Exchange of phone numbers……..
Saw the moon above , could sight her there.

Slept like a baby , hugged with pillows,
Woke up early ,to see the beauty,
Beauty of the nature.

The early sun , bright , sensible and
And could sight her there with the sun…
Such was her grace and beauty
Truly natural……

My day and night was all she…
She settled down in easily,
In my heart , my mind and my soul.

Twas all over,
Over for the rest of life,
Thy was done with it.

Distance was the reason
Loneliness was the factor,
Phones me and tells,…
“cant still move on”…

Me again dumbstruck..(history repeats itself)
Nothing to reply back
And silence was all over…
A deathly silence was felt …
As if I in the grave..
And she in the graveyard…!

She broke the silence,
Asked for a reply…
“I free you”, was my answer..
Hanged up the phone ,
Held outta it …
All gone, all done !!